25th of August - The Mediterranean

I swear that the weather is only getting hotter. Today I went to the pool at 6pm and even then only for 15 minutes. When I went to the store around 4pm I almost melted, it showed 39 degrees in the shadow. That is why the time from the sunset until bedtime is so precious. Some nights the air does not want to move at all, but usually there is a nice breeze from the Mediterranean. So quite often we end up spending time on the balcony looking into the night and discussing the future, which looks quite unknown for both of us at the moment. I have this gap year thing going on and I really don't know where and how to spend it anymore. And so there'd be more options, it turned out that there is a spot for me in the master studies in Tartu after all. My plans to apply to Aalto Uni in Finland. This and that. Halit might end up going to Australia with Efe. Or who knows where. So, anyways our futures don't add up, that's the reason why I have this ticket to Barcelona... Sometimes we remind the simple times we had in May when I was on a vacation and there were no difficult discussions like that. The boat cruise, Bellapais and the good life.

I like to watch how the sea and the sky change colours during the day: in the morning the sea is darker and the sky is really light blue, almost white in the contact with the sea. At some point appear those light stripes in the sea until the only thing darker is the horizon. The sun is low enough and that gives the sea a certain glow. When the sun starts to set, the sea turns grey. In the East the sky is pretty dark already and there is a dance of colours in the West sky. The dance which is much more fluent and calm than in the Estonian sky. It's probably the lack of clouds which would reflect and break the light to create more contrasts. In here the sunset is a smooth gamma from bright orange to deep purple, the surrender of the day to the dark night. In Estonia it all looks as if it's a fight for survival which leads to a passionate death of the day. For some time the already set sun keeps the west sky still brighter but soon it is all just darkness. Such darkness one will never experience during summertime in Estonia.

With all those evenings on the balcony I have also learned how to tell time by the stars. Well, just the Canis Majoris and the Northern Star. And I am pretty sure that if you stare the Northern Star long enough you will see how the stars circle around it. Really.